Rawen's Musings

Yup, you’re reading the headline right. This is the mixture of feelings I’m currently fueled by, writing these lines and sipping on my afternoon coffee. On this day, I woke up, got up and, despite it being highly unwise (I never said I’m wise and if I did … take it with a grain of salt :p), I asked myself “Will I be surprised? Or was I right all along?” So I took a peek and well, see the headline. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not happy. C’mon, being happy about this would make go against my own integrity. But frankly, seeing the amounts of hope felt to me as if many kind of forgot the reality of how it got into this mess. So, why am I typing all this out? Partly to vent a little bit of frustration and partly to create a form of reality check. Will it piss you off? Oh, I’m sure it will. And you’re very much in the right to feel the way. So, let’s kick you in the teeth first. Then I’ll break every single bone in your body. Then, I’ll grab the surgery tools and start putting all the broken pieces together. Slowly, patiently, making sure everything is properly aligned and in the right place.

The kick in the teeth … There was never a chance

Yes, you’re reading this right. There was never a chance for a different outcome. Now you might be asking “Why? Why do you bring our hopes down?” Because there was no genuine hope to begin with. All there was were dreams. Because those who could’ve provided the hope utterly failed to do so three years ago. Three years spent in complacency and inaction only to end up in a panicked scramble at the “minute until midnight” moment. And what an impotent scramble it was; disorganised, toothless, only serving to fuel and eventually solidify the inevitable. All the events later were only the inevitable consequences. So yeah, you failed and you failed hard. Not the ordinary people; you effectively did what you could was within your reach. I’m looking at you, people who had some actual power to prevent your downfall and you did nothing. You are the final crumbling pillar who betrayed the people. And you will be the ones to suffer the consequences.

Now the mending …

So, what now? Right now, let the emotions run their course. You want to cry? Find the cosy corner in your room and cry your eyes out. If you have a loved one, do so together. If you want to scream your lungs out, do so. Find a place where you feel most comfortable to let go and scream until your throat feels sore. You want to break things in frustration? Do so. Get stuff you want to get rid off, grab a hammer and crush all of the things until there’s only fine dust left.

Got it all out of the system? Alright, now take my hand and let’s stand up in front of the mirror. What do you see? Tears, bruises, scars, eyes full of pain and hopelessness, staring vacantly into the distance. And one more thing; you. You, the person brought into this world. Person shaped by your own decisions and choices. And that’s something nobody can take away. So, fix the dents in the armour, sharpen your blades, practice your swing and revise your spells. For the beast can only thrive if left unbothered. So, be that nuissance that ultimately leads the its defeat. And being yourself and keeping your integrity is the best weapon you have.

R.R.A.